I've decided it's time for an (admittedly tongue in cheek) exploration of my emotional reaction to relapse. Tongue in cheek not only because I'm comparing to a very well known model normally called "The five stages of grief" but also because the evidence suggests that that model is a poor representation of what really happens to … Continue reading The four stages of relapse
Feeling better and a few firsts
First some news -- I am happy to say that I am no longer suffering from constant headaches, have less dizziness, am not totally soaked when I wake up (though still sweaty) and generally seem to be improving. I still tend to need either an early bed time or a nap or both and have … Continue reading Feeling better and a few firsts
Thank you
Today was one of many days when I leaned outward for support and found many arms and hearts ready to receive me. I want to acknowledge how much of a difference they have made in my life and my experience of Lyme disease. For example, earlier today I was trying to work on a paper … Continue reading Thank you
The PIC line is gone… what now?
I looked forward to today with such anticipation, I had no idea how much I wanted that line out of me until it began to approach. I guess that's my brain avoiding cognitive dissonance. In any case, I had grand plans for the day: a long bath without any plastic protecting my arm, and a … Continue reading The PIC line is gone… what now?
3 days and counting…
Well it's 3 more days of IV antibiotics and then freedom. It's also the solstice, and the week in which I turned outward again towards the sun and hope and began to feel the seeds of some inner change take root. As I've experienced with past chronic illness, I had hoped for much more much … Continue reading 3 days and counting…
CAT Scan, weaning, unweaning …
Probably one of the most difficult moments of this whole experience was the morning of October 4th, when I showed up at the hospital to get a CAT scan. After all the paperwork was done and I arrived at the lab, I sat down for the nurse to prep me, and she asked me if … Continue reading CAT Scan, weaning, unweaning …